Doubt helps us to gain wisdom

“Without realising it those who find themselves in doubt are making progress on the path of wisdom.” The Golden Mirror

I have been having a lot of doubts lately about where I am in my life and what path I am meant to take. Wondering if I am on the path I am meant to be on. Looking at ones that meander by me tempting me to go down. Temptations all around. But then I look at my children. My family. And I think I am doing the best I can. My life. My dreams have to come second to theirs because I had my time to do what I wanted before they arrived and this is the path I chose. To become a mother, To nourish. To care. To look out for.

But still there is something deep inside me that is creating doubt about some of the choices I have made and choices I have yet to make. Doubt creeping in about whether I am taking the easy route out. Whether I am using my children, my family as an excuse to stay where I am.

And then I came across this quote yesterday and it said without realising it those who find themselves in doubt are making progress on the path of wisdom.  Reading this quote felt like a light bulb went off in my head, jogging my memory, making me remember that doubt is that which causes us to explore. To delve deeper. To not accept things at face value. To try to find the deeper meaning of the circumstances and situations we find ourselves in. Doubt causes us to question. To search. To seek.

Without doubt our lives would be stagnant. We would be incapable of growing more because doubt is the itchy feeling we get when we know there is more and we are capable of more. There are lots of people exploring this same feeling. I have spoken to many who are feeling like there is something more. They are experiencing the same doubts that I am. And it’s because, unlike the generations before us, we are not content to be content. We want more. We crave more. And it is doubt that is driving us.

But the drive is not a negative thing if we are striving to find meaning in our lives. Seeking the bigger picture. Our place in this journey called life.

What I and all of us have to remember is doubt is healthy even when irritating because it is awakening us to our soul’s desires.  Remembering always, “without realising it those who find themselves in doubt are making progress on the path of wisdom.”